Making a Game Part 1 Iteration 1cd: Exploring Narrative and Story Telling

Synthesis: Brainstorming

  • My mother taught me not to cry. That’s why I cry alone in the shower and pretend its just water dripping down my face.
  • I don’t talk to my dad, simply because we have nothing to talk about.
  • People expect me to be a certain way.
  • I’m having dinner with my friends, I smile and I laugh at their jokes, even though a huge rain cloud hovers over my head and I’m just bracing myself for a thunderstorm.
  • I feel stupid.
  • I feel there is a giant “超級無敵大笨蛋” (Super Duper Stupid Head) sign above your head like one of those exaggerated animes.
  • And I am afraid that other people will be able to see it too.
  • I physically feel sick. My chest tightens and my stomach acts up.
  • I have skin allergies (aside from my usual psoriasis), and I’m not sure if it’s caused by the spring weather or stress. I take allergy medicine for it anyway, and it usually disappears in the morning. But then it comes back later at night.
  • I don’t know if its the small dorm room with curtains that I can’t open that’s making me so miserable.
  • Maybe anyone and everyone gets depressed in the dorm room.
  • I don’t know what I’m doing with my life.
  • This is an escape, a vacation.
  • This is just a blank space, a semicolon for me. Before I hopefully return to my real life.
  • But I don’t want to return to real life.
  • What is real life even?
  • A job?
  • The problem with people of our generation is because we think we are supposed to like our jobs?
  • I missed events I signed up to and originally excited to attend, because… I just can’t. I felt a little physically sick. But it’s really just an excuse.
  • I didn’t want to spend hours on a train to attend a party and force myself to talk to people. I don’t know, I don’t want… to talk to people.
  • Sometimes all I want to do is sleep.
  • Because at least my dreams are more interesting.
  • Depression is like a rain cloud, it comes and goes. You can never truly predict when it will start to pour.

Refinement

I think this may take some more time.

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