Just a quick update about what I have been up to lately.
I also cut up, or at least tried, to cut up some snowflakes for another puzzle.
But then last night I just suddenly felt… Watch the video and you’ll see.
The description on the video is:
This is unedited, which is why I sound like a mess. And even though I mentioned that I was going to include an updated gameplay video, I didn’t. I will upload a gameplay video separately.
I’m sorry, but I decided to upload this anyway, because it exposes a part of me that I rarely show anyone, even my closest friends. But I still needed to say those things, and since the internet is such a big place, the chances of another human being viewing this is actually quite low, it’s like sending out a message in a bottle into the sea. But if anyone hears me, thank you for listening.
Everybody have good days and bad days; the other night was a bad one. When people ask me, "How are you?", I've been programmed to say, "I'm fine." Even though I'm not. Because I'm afraid. I'm afraid to let people see the "imperfect" side of me. The side and the voices in my head that always tells me, "I'm not good enough". Instead of using my voice to tell people that I'm not okay, I'm making a game about depression instead. #depressionsimulator is about a day in the life of someone suffering from depression, have the players walk a while in my shoes and maybe then, they wouldn't be so quick to judge me and others like me. To know more about the game, follow my blog (link in my profile). Are you there, people of the internet? If you hear me, thank you for listening. #depression #mentalhealthawareness #itsokaynottobeokay
And then I had to wake up again this morning and pretend that everything is okay, because my flatmates and I had plans to go to a concert.
The concert was really good. I especially liked the last band, Victories at Sea.
We also went to the Jamaica Festival in Victoria Square for dinner. The jerk chicken tastes and smells amazing. And it’s interesting how smokey the square was from all that grilling.
And tomorrow, I’m going to continue my charade, because I made plans with my classmates to go to another food festival.